but i love him.

If ever u have to choose.
When u can decide to win or loose.
When wishes are given to u in a platter.
When everyone seems to flatter.
What do u do at such a time??
Ask for wishes not worth a dime??
Luck, time all favour u then.
But still u sit in ur dingy den.
Coz u have lost what luck can never give u back.
U’ve lost the friendship and now a stag.
Why did it happen??what did I do??
Could I not have love and friendship too.
Why have I been made to stay??
On a fork road with just one way??
I love him and I really do???
Y don’t u understand this simple rule.
But never have I wanted u to leave.
Coz most of my life u have weaved.
Probably, I should just let u go.
Let me just give up and take bow.
Go my friend, go away.
Go to a place where I would never sway.
A place where u will never find me.
A place where u will always be happy.
I tried it hard and hard did I try.
For him to go, for his thought to fly.
But I love him, I really do.
Y don’t u understand this simple rule.
I know it might not last forever.
I he might use me , as he is clever.
But yet he holds me with a power so devine.
And I think, its finally a true sign.
So if u want to go and leave.
Coz its ur memories which I will keep and sieve.
I want u to stay but u have changed.
Don’t know y u have become so strange.
Strange, that I feel so deceived.
That I told u everything unleashed.
So bidding adieu is what is left.
Keeping all ur memories in a cleft.

life: finished, over, lost

I have been called by names.
And with me people have played immense games.
But yet I stand at the alter of strength,
I know that all my friends have gone in their dens.
Still without shedding a tear,
I just sit down and stare.
I think to myself if I ever could.
Just be happy and have myself understood.
Yes, if limbs are cut a person can live,
If mind is hurt, an advice a person can give.
But if heart is hurt, beaten and slaughtered to an extent.
That it fails to live and ultimately reaches its end.
Then you stop living and jus remain alive.
The breath is working but u’ve lost the jive.
U’ve lost the wish to be live.
U’ve lost the desire to be happy.
U’ve forgotten the flow of emotion.
At this point of time all u do is sit and stare.
And give life a blank dare.
A dare to finish all ur duties.
A dare to complete all ur responsibilities.
A dare to reach everyone’s expectations.
And then just live in despair.
And think that the moment just for me is lost somewhere.
My happiness has gone into the dungeons which are deep.
And the story of my life has become very steep.
So live every moment for you.
Coz u never know when u might have to bid adieu.

PARADOX OF OUR TIMES.

Today v have bigger houses, smaller families.
More conviniences but less time.
V have meore degrees but less common sense.
More knowledge but less judgement.
More experts and more problems.
More medicenes but less wellness.
V spend 2 much, laugh too little, drive too fast.
Get angry too quickly, stay up late, read too little, pray too seldom
V tok too much, love too little, and lie too often.
We’ve learnt how to make a living but not a life.
V have added years to life but not life to years.
V have taller building but shorter tempers.
V buy more and enjoy it less.
We’ve been all the way to moon,
But have trouble crossing the street to meet an ill friend.
Write more, learn less. Learn to rush and not to wait.
We build more computers to store more information.,
But still have communication gap.
V have fast food but slow digestion.
Tall men but shorter characters.
Two incomes but more divorces.
Gud houses but broken homes.
That’s y don’t leave nethn for a special day.coz everyday is a gift. If u r too busy to take out time for sum1 and say ‘ one of dese days, I will meet dis person’ then remember ‘one of these days U MITE NOT B THERE.!!

GOODBYE NOT SO SOON.

Things change.yes they surely do!! From class rooms to universities, from teachers to professors, from friends to collegues. But one thing that never changes are these memories. Memories…which will always be etched in my mind.
My mother has taught me one special thing ands that is ‘the only thing that’s permanent…is change.’ How true!!but just by accepting this fact and leaving my nestle of last eight years was not easy.
Saying goodbye to my almamater was impossible. It was here whre the little girl of 9 years became a stubborn teenager and later transformed into a young lady. Thank you!! I know it is not enough and not even acceptable, but as of now I have nothing in my hand. Because u can’t thank those school gates who got u into this paradise. Because u can’t thank those tables and desks who gave u a place in here. Because u can’t thank those blackboards for bearing your childish writings. Because u can’t thank those water points whre u spent hours just to remain away from class. Because u can’t thank the substitution list which gave u joy (sometimes) to know that u get a free class. Because u can’t thank those security gaurds to help u reach ur home wen u miss ur bus. Because u can’t thank ur lab assistants who listened 2 all ur nonsense and still helped u get good marks in practicals. Because u can’t thank ur friends, seniors, juniors to make u wot u r 2day!!! And lastly u can’t thank ur teachers to help u rise n becum successful even wen they r loaded with thousands of problems.
I Arjita Sethi, 98/1033 might jus be n old no. because I have not dun nethn great and today I stand at the gates of my paradise and bid adieu.
Though difficult but the promise dat I will return to make every1 proud of me is helping.
With determination on my mind I depart but along wid a promise that I will return to my home, my paradise, my school. THE ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL.

DONT PASS ME BY.

He walked with his eyes lowered head to the ground.
When he saw me, he spoke, and I took in his sight.
He was scruffy and rageddy.
In his eyes was no light.
He said mam I am hungry.
He was very polite.
I said tohim softly, “no money have I” but
I will buy u sum food wid dese food stamps of mine.
He walked on in silence this homeless old man.
And he said give me ur no. , I will repay wen I can.
As he walked down d grocery store
Like a child he picked sumthn n asked for sum more.
I gladly told him to fill all his needs.
Coz in my life tym I had done sum bad deeds.
I will never forget, as he went his way.
Coz he gave me sumthin I can never repay.
He gave me a chance to give wat I cud.
A chance to show love to the misunderstood.
A chance to feed sumone, wen no1 else wud.
A chance to be special, a chance to b gud.
I will ever b grateful to d stranger in rags.
For showing me love in few grocery bags.
For letting me b d 1 who had more.
For letting me answer his knock at my door.
U c I am no angel
Though I have always wanted to b.
I have hurt many people by just being me.
And this man, this stranger, who did not pass me by.
Set free for an instant
AN ANGEL TO FLY!!

Y DO I STILL LOVE HIM???

Every word he said was so true
But the moments spent with him were very few
Everyone told me to know the difference between right and wrong
But still my faith in him was strong
Now he has gone and his absence has left me empty.
On a deserted road now I stand stranded
With all the thoughts gushing through my mind.
Just waiting now for his one sign.
One sign that tells me to come back
Leaving whatever happened back in a stack.
Go back to the same old days
When we could have our own ways.
But that would never happen again
All my trials and tribulations are in vain.
Yes, I can say he was not worth me…but then
Why do I still love him
WHY DO I STILL LOVE HIM?????

MY LOVE

Every moment I think of you
In my eyes there is a strange view
It is a feeling that might seem superficial.
But for my heart its absolutely real.
I guess feelings can’t really be written in words.
But if you don’t express them , they fly like birds.
I’m trying to create my own identity.
In this huge world of lies and infidelity.
An identity which is not based on a lie.
On which stones can’t be thrown by passer’s by.
A world of my own is what I am tracing.
But the moments out of my hands are pacing.
A world in which love does not be shown.
A world in which smiles do not have to be worn.
A world in which true expressions are born.
A world where feelings are not torn.
A world in which the look in the eye shows that you care.
A world in which affection is not termed sere.
A world where your one touch can bring me to life.
Where your kiss makes me fall in love.
With everything in this world which is not so superb.
I don’t know if its love, affection or infatuation.
For me it’s the biggest realization.
Realization of the fact that you are only mine
Though I know that this moment won’t last for anytime.
I know soon we’ll part ways.
As there are different things we need to do and say.
One day you will find some one new
Some one who will be more important and closer to you.
But don’t worry I will not be low
As probably someone even I will know.
Who loves me more than you.
Some one who does not get hurt on drop of the hat.
Without realizing what problem I might have had.
I know you are justified at your place.
But…forget it lets just rest this case.
Now I will always do as you say.
Lets just have everything your way.
Probably then you’ll believe that I love you
Let me give up my emotions for our sake.
Coz I don’t want this relationship to break.

DREAM

I woke up one morning
With a dream in my eyes
After that, the dream occupies my
Thoughts all the time.

The dream is like a cloud of hope
When there are ters in my eyes.
That dream is like a ray of light.
When there are lonely dungeons in sight.

The dream shows me a world.
A world which seems very far sometimes.
But can be seen somewhere
In living angel’s eyes

A world it is of love
A world with no walls
A world where one doesn’t have to think
Before standing
If the ground is safe or not.

A world where one doesn’t have to wear a million masks
A world in we haven’t forgotten that
There is joy that makes a smile
A world where ‘me’ doesn’t come before ‘I’.

A world where guns can never replace doves.
A world which doesn’t have to be a battlefield for all who live
Where everyone can have a quite place under the sun.
A world where every eye sparkles with a dream.
A dream that can never be trodden upon.

It is with this dream that I live
It is with this dream that I grow
The dream makes me see
A better tomorrow

When all doors are closed
And ther is darkness all around
This dream creeps from a tiny hole somewhere
And shows me that there is still some light.

It scares me sometimes
To think that I am too far from reality
But then, deep down I know
There are many eyes dreaming my dream

And its only when the world seems
So blank, so stark, so rotting inside,
That I see thousands of paint brushes
Painting my dream, our dream!!

HUMANITY

I shout, but no voice is heard.
I run, but I have no shelter to run to
I just don’t look….
Because the past gives birth to fear.
But then, I don’t have anything to look towards to.
Everywhere I see, there is pain, agony, hunger, dissatisfaction.
And all this from the outside world gets into me.
And all thos from the outside world gets into me.
And I feel I have become what I have never wanted to be.
The world’s people seem to be teaching me to live only for myself.
The elders seem to be saying quietly.
That the battle is lost without fighting.
And when I look around for some solace
I find none.
But I still try to console myself
Try to be optimisticin this harsh cynical world.
I hear. I talk, I spread the message of love
Wherever I see darkness.
I try to heal the wounds of the past through my words.
But again I am scared.
I am scared that one day
These words will fall short
My actions will not speak the language they do today
And this world will rob me off my
HUMANITY!!!

LONLINESS!!

How can I ever forget?
The days of lonliness.
When I sat all alone
In a crowd of madness.

Why are we living a lie?
Has our confidence made us so shy?
That emotions become a crime.
And character is being sold for a dime?

Why is there no difference between infatuation and love?
Why are we dirtying the gift of almighty above??

Why don’t we understand that
If we have to hide our love
Then better not to have that crap!

One day when I will find
The answers for these from my mind.
Then that day , god I will
Surely surrender to this evil
But till then let me just live
For myself and for you
because I am yet to find someone more true!!